Genesis

OK, where do I begin?

I didn't get the Director's position at In-Sight. They went with an adjunct professor from Rochester. Sounds like a great choice, but I'm still bummed.

I lost my day job at Auto Mall. They downsized 5 positions. Shitty economy. Last day is Friday, May 8th.

I'm leaving for Nova Scotia as soon as I can clean out my apartment, probably next weekend. I'm giving it up and selling or giving away anything that won't fit on my bike (except my Mac, some photos, and a road bike that I'll store at my folks house. I know it sounds a little crazy, but I'm using the proceeds from the sale of my car and my stuff to settle my obligations and give me a fresh start. I need to have all my loose ends tied up and don't want to be worrying about anything behind me.

I was talking with friends about the likelihood of going out on the road and experiencing what will truly be amazing and life changing, and then coming back to resume my life in my apartment and getting a job at another dealership. It just ain't gonna happen. When I get back to my apartment I'll be a couple grand in debt and then what? If I give up the apartment, I have options, a lot more options. I could stay on the road for the whole summer. Maybe I'll end up landing somewhere that needs a me more than Brattleboro. Maybe I'm looking for my next home. I won't know 'til I do it.

I watched "Into the Wild" a few nights ago. Soooo fitting for me with what lies ahead (except for the dying in the wilderness part). One thing that I got from it was that money and possessions make you cautious, it's true. I need to be free of that kind of caution right now if I'm going to find what I'm seeking.

How this will effect life in Brattleboro is yet to be determined. I won't really know until I'm well on my way.